I have made it a really bad habit of mine to make fun of my Boyfriends Exes. I really need to get over it. I am insecure with just about everything about myself. And I see the ones who were there the longest, thin and pretty and good at talking at people. They have lots of “friends” and have good grades. And then there is me. average. How can I not make them my targets? They are my biggest threats.
People always say their significant other is their “Better Half”, Most days I think Erik is the only good thing about me. When I was younger I had a lot going for me. I had lots of friends and I did well in school and I was involved in lots of things. I could be anything. But now I can really only be me. And some days I hate being me. Don’t get me wrong, I am not depressed and I don’t have have anything really wrong with me. However it seems to be the only way to get any sort of recognition.
And here I am hoping maybe somebody will understand on some level how I feel. But no, I will probably get hated on for being fake. So yeah. I think I am done, I have made myself angry enough for the day.